For all of you following the dramatic saga of my life that should really be turned into a reality tv show of sorts i am pleased to announce...
I HAVE A HOME!!!! i put a deposit down on an apartment this morning. it is very short distance from where i live now so still close enough to work. it's 530 a month hot water is included. the heat is not. the heat is electric and that is separate. but each room has it's own dial so i'll be able to keep it controlled. it's gonna be really really tight but once i move i'm going to apply for food stamps which i should qualify for. so that will be a big help. if not i'll just have to get a second job. but we'll see how all that goes.

however the battle is not over. now there is packing, and telling my aunt, who lately wants me to stay and find a better apartment. i also have to find somewhere for my dogs to go asap. the apartment has a tenant right now. my landlord is hoping to have himout by the first the apartment will be ready no later than the 15th. if i can i'll stay here that would buy me time with the dogs and to find them a place. if not i'll be out on the first and i'll stay with my cousin till the apartment is ready. unfortunately if that is the case then i'll have to bring the dogs to the shelter.

i know your all wondering about Leo. good news there too. i get to keep him! and it's oka with my landlord if i have wyatt too. i may still have to find wyatt a home but at least he'll be able to stay with me till he gets one. Kismet my other cat will be going to live with my friend Vicky so i know he'll have a good home. my only worry now is the dogs.

a huge THANK YOU!!!! to everyone for their prayers. and for their support and help through all of this. the war is not over yet but at least we are heading in teh right direction.

Happy Ville's Birthday Everyone!

so i got some good news but it comes with possibly more complications. i'm not really sure if it's good or not. as it turns out i can't afford the apartment i last mentioned. i'm not really surprised by that. my cousin told me today that a friend of hers is looking for a roommate. the rent would be 400 a month everything included. which is perfect. if your sensing a "but" coming you would be correct in that. she doesn't know if her friend will let me have leo. and she says "worse comes to worse you'll just move in with me. but if you move in with me you can't have any animals" so that means i'd have to give up leo. i already decided i'm not giving up leo. i called my friend lisa to see if she can run me and leo moving in there and paying rent for a room past her dad. i'm hoping i can get this roommate of my cousins and she'll just say yes to leo and everything will be fine. but i know better than to actually expect that. i just cannot lose leo. not after all that i've been through and all that i've lost. so everyone pray, hope, whatever that i can keep leo. thanks in advance.

so i figured i'd update you guys on what's been going on. pretty much it's the same. my cousin's fiancee said she would talk to her cousin about taking the dogs. i wouldn't be able to see them but it would be a good home and she'll keep her ear out. i also contacted a client of ours at work. he grew up with my friend terri and she gave me his number. he breeds shepherds and also does rescue work. he said he'd put some feelers out for me as well. which is good and heartbreaking all at the same time. i may end up keeping the bunny wyatt because he really doens't cost me anything and he may be easy on landlords because he's caged and not running around. so that would be nice.
i sent in a request for an application for food stamps and contacted social services about any other programs that may or may not be able to help me. hopefully something will come up.
i did get a lead on an apartment that is 600 a month heat and hot water is included. but that leaves me only about 200 a month for phone/internet/cable, electric, and food. so i don't know that i can afford that without some assistance which i may or may not get. the other option would be getting a second job. however the state won't help me if i do that. so i'm holding off on that to see if they can help me first.
basically it's been alot of doing and trying and getting nowhere. and i've got exactly 2 weeks 2 days before i'm homeless. miracle anyone? lol i know better. that's just not my luck. even with it being Friday The 13th luck just does not seem to be on my side.

well i still haven't found a place to live that i can afford. even if i only keep leo. as i said before i won't part with him. my cousin said that she might have me move in with her. her main concern is that i do need to learn to live on my own and stuff. i told her that i agree with her on that. i've been ready to live on my own for a long time. long before all this went down. so i suggested that she charge me rent as if i was just renting a room. at least then it's a step in the right direction. no different than if i just got a random roommate. only the roommate just happens to be my cousin. she agreed. so we're still figuring stuff out. i have to find a place for my animals except leo. i can't have them all there. her brother is the landlord but he'd kill the both of us if i brought my pets there. he'd probably be okay with just leo though. she has a new puppy. so my 4 year old litter trained cat with clipped claws should not be a problem. so i don't know we'll see. my friend vicky at work said she could take kismet. she can't take the dogs because she has six dogs already. but she could take a cat. i have a couple options ofr the dogs. her cousin may take them. also i can call their breeder and see what she can do for me. and my friend sent me some links to some german shepherd rescues. it will be heartbreaking and add to the many losses i've already suffered the last few months but iu n the long run i know it's for the best. i'll try to keep you guys posted.

well i did end up going to dinner with my mom yesterday. we went to wendy's. she got me the 2 disc This Is It cd that i didn't really have the money to get. as well as the cd of Invincible. which i only have on itunes. she wants to come down once a week and do something. she's going to help me find a place to live. which i'm in no position to turn down help. however, it is mom. and it is also weird that she didn't decide to try and contact me until she heard that me and my aunt had a falling out that resulted in me moving out. so i don't trust her fully. i'm still not sure if this good or bad. i'd like to trust her but i can't because i can't afford to be screwed over either. i also can't really take any more drama in my life. so i guess i'll keep you posted.

well tomorrow it becomes official. i give my final decision that i'm moving out. which really it's a formality at this point. everyone knows that i'm moving out. my aunt doesn't even want me here. she's made that perfectly clear. never the less. over a week later i still have no idea where i'm going to live. and the very real possibility of giving up my animals except for leo is screaming at me. i refuse to give up leo. he and i are far too bonded to be separated. but that still leaves another cat a rabbit and 2 german shepehrds to find new homes for. which to say that's breaking my heart is an understatement.

in other news a family friend Michelle called me today. apparently my mother who ihaven't seen or talked to in about five or six years wants to have dinner with me tomorrow night. i said yes. ofcourse has anyone called me back? ofcourse not. so who knows what will happen with that

last night i saw This Is It. the movie was phenomenal. the tour would have been beyond words. Michael was absolutely amazing and definitely outdoing himself. it was great to see him at his best. i still miss him so mcuh. he was always the one there for me. the best part was when the whole audience sang along in the theater. i was the only one in tribute form. i wore the military jacket from the party. kristin my cousins fiancee who went with me bought me an MJ t-shirt. that was really sweet of her.

in closing i'm exhausted, stressed to the max, and depressed. and have been for days. tomorrow is Halloween. my favorite holiday and i don't even care.

so tonight like last night i'm locking myself in my bedroom till mike goes to bed to avoid getting into trouble. silence is the only way i can survive in this house. anyway i left to walk the dogs. mike fucking saw me get the dogs ready for a walk and go. i turned on the porch lights. and get ready and go. i come home and the whole house is dark. including the porch lights. and the fucking door is locked. needless to say i don't have my key. and he has the music blairing so he couldn't have heard me knock. and i really didn't want to see him because i would have said something. so i had to go around back and punch a hole in my screen so i could reach through and pop it out and climb in my bedroom window. then go let my dogs in. they were laying in the hallway outside my door and mike comes in the hall and starts going "c'mon give her a break leave cara alone for a little while" and makes them go outside in the rain. he had to convince bandit to go outside because he didn't want to. and he doesn't like mike. i was so infuriated that i called my sister to vent. because typing at that point was not gonna be good enough. then when erics grandmother dropped him off she was chatting with mike cuz he's charmed her. so i took that opportunity to get a bowl of lucky charms and a couple sodas so i had food in here. while i'm in hybernation. once last night and to once tonight he's knocked on my door and i ignore him. i'm sure i'll hear about it on the way to work. but sorry if she doesn't want the cops called this is how it's gotta be when she's not here. i so can't wait to get out of here. this was all after a complete meltdown and i curled up crying in my closet because of all the stress and tomorrow being four months since Michael's death.

for the first time since sunday night my aunt and mike approached me. mike apparently wants me to stay. though i'm not sure it's not just a ploy to make him look good and hope that i refuse. he has offered me the attic. i'm not sure if this includes bathroom and kitchen. though it didn't sound like it in his offer. if i stay i pay my aunt rent. i asked my aunt if she wanted me to stay. but she didn't answer she just said "i'm on vacation" last night she asked for a one week mental health vacation. where nobody bothers her unless it's an emergency and other than that she will continue her regular routine of bringing me to work and what knot but that is all. so i don't see how this conversation is really useful anyway if she's just not dealing. i did manage to get across that i did not punch mike in the face nor did i kick him between the legs. that was the only thing that iwas able to say. before getting cut off with "think before you talk" so in order for what i need to say to get across without being cut off. i'm going to have to type it up in a letter or something similar. the deal is this: if i stay i pay rent. i get my own access. my animals can stay. if i chose to get my own place or live with someone else then she cuts all ties with me and her responsibilities to me are then over. i have until halloween to decide. i should also mention that in the conversation at random mike offered to buy my dogs from me. as if i would ever let that happen. the only reason i didn't just say fuck you is because i truly don't know where i'm going to go or how i'm going to get there. transporation to and from work is a problem these are valid points. and finding an affordable apartment that allows my animals is also not easy. so i said that i would think about it. however, that does not change that screaming and fighting continues and will continue. i don't want to take the chance of mike drinking the wrong thing or the wrong amoung and changing his mind. it's clear he has obvious pull with her. i didn't get the feeling that she wants me here. i have been physicall ill since sunday. my stomache is always upset. i'm nauseous all the time or i have to go to the bathroom all the time. my dogs don't come to mike they run away from him. i don't honestly think that i can live here anymore. i don't know that i can handle it. the other question is do i mention Michael in all of this. i'm pretty sure that's a bad idea. his death is definitly part of it. but she'll use him against me and i don't know if i can.

the latest update in the saga that is my life will probably throw you guys for a loop. it all happened so fast and was so out of control that i didn't really have time to update you guys on what was going on as it happened. so starting with sunday night. mike was drinking again. he sent me to the store to buy him a 40 oz bottle of beer. shortly after that mike wants the door open. it's like 30 degrees outside. eric must have said it was cold so mike told him "put a fucking sweater on" eric then came into my room, calm and not upset and simply said "Cara, mike is acting drunk" i replieyd "i really can't be dealing with it anymore eric. just do what he says and we'll close the door later when he goes to bed." then mike came into the hallway screaming at eric "go ahead go cry to cara you fucking cry baby" so i got up and said "mike shut up and leave us alone" when i did that i did shove eric out of my way with out the intent to hurt him. mike then yelled at me for shoving eric and i told him that eric was welcome to say whatever he wanted to me. mike then starts screaming at me that "i run this house bitch" and told me to go to my room. i told him "fuck you you fucking asshole i'm 24 years old" during this i did shove mike away from me using the side of my body. he then flipped out about me hitting him. also calimed i kicked him in the balls. i didn't. i shoved him twice that's it. anyway, needless to say my aunt was called and mike called the cops on me wanting me arrested. my aunt over the phone took his side. she told me on the phone that if i couldn't handle her choice in men then i need to get the fuck out. the cops came and talked to mike talked to me got both sides of the story. as it turns out the cops weren't too thrilled with him. the cop came in my room and shut the door behind him and said "you don't mind if i shut that do you?" i replied "no, it's fine" he said "i just can't listen to him anymore" then he told me that he can't make me leave. if i chose to stay mike wants me arrested and it would be harrassment at bes ti wouldn't be going to jail anyway. but to avoid having an arrest on my file it would be better to leave voluntarily. so i said i'd call my cousin kristin. she came in yelling at mike and the cops when i said that. apparenlty my aunt called her. i ended up staying at kristins house sunday night. i brought with me my ipod, 2 books, clothes for work, pajamas for bed. three sodas, my medicine and an empty waterbottle. kristin let me use her laptop to talk to my sister and tell her what was going on but i was too upset to post here. i didn't really sleep at all and kristin took me to work the next day. i brought some apple juice with me to work from her house but had no lunch and no money. and the frosted flakes i ate at her house inthe morning was al i ate since the nutty butty bar at about 4 pm on sunday wiht lunch on sunday at about 12ish. vicky got me subway for lunch and i told her i'd pay her back when i had money. and peggy from work brought me some snacks from her house. it ended up being too much food for lunch but it was lucky because the left overs ended up being my dinner. kristin called me in the afternoon at work to ask if i had heard from my aunt. i said i hadn't. she siad "i talked to her this morning she was being a complete and total bitch so i blew her off and haven't spoken to her since so call home like normal for a ride if she refuses then call me" when i called the phone was out so i called kristin and told her that. kristin sent her mother, my aunt gail to get me. gail asked what i wanted to do. i told her "go home. not going back is worse than going back" she said the house looked dark and asked if i wanted her to wait for me or come in with me. i told her it was fine. i came in the boys were playing video games and eric informed me that they were sleeping and they'd talk to me in the morning. ottavio asked if was alright i told him i was and thank you for asking. i then went on about my business. talked to kristin via cell phone. i have no phone now because i ran out of minutes. after talking to my sister and her friend lisa and kristin. this morning my aunt informed me that she wants me out by Dec 1. during her whole thing about noody caring about her and me not being appreciative or standing by her etc etc. i said nothing. there wasn't anything to say. mike tried talking to me while she wasn't home when she brought eric to school. he said that he was trying to convince her to give me a second chance, which she did say that he said that. i said "she's made up her mind and it's fine" then her car pulled up so i walked away. i knew if she came in to me talking to mike she'd assume i was begging him for forgiveness or something and it would start a fight. so i just walked away. she said she'll bring me to work while i still live here and i can have anything in my room (that's where my stuff is) that i want. but me and my animals ahve to be out by Dec. 1. i wouldn't leave them here anyway. basically not a chance in hell. i emailed work to let them know i'm fine. everyone was worried about me going home. gail offered to help me find a plae to live i had told her that i wanted to talk to my aunt first but i'll talk to kristin when i can and tell her that if her mothers offer still stands i'll take it. my and my sisters friend lisa also offeredme a place. the dogs may be an issue but she said we might be able to work something out. i breifly looked at some state aid. i think that staying with someone would be better at first. since transporation is a bit of an issue as well. so that's where i'm at now. i'll try to keep you posted but if there is one thing that i've learned since Michael's death it's that things can change in seconds.

okay so i'm home from the Halloween party. i'm a little drunk. i had lots and lots of punch, some wine and i did group jello shots. poor nicole was drinking vicariously through everyone else. she has stomache issues which make it so she really can't drink. so she was like "how's that smell, does that smell good. is it good??" lol. veronica though not drunk did her mating calls for us and we got her to do it to everyone else. and they actually got me to Moonwalk. after a few punches. after a few more punches the moonwalks weren't straight anymore lol. i did the kick at one point too. jaimies husband john has to win best costume. he was jesus. though when i left it was more like a gay cowboy jesus.apparenly the number of costumes tells you how much he's had to drink lol. but it was fun. mereidth was confusious and she had tomove her beard to eat which we all got a kick out of. she wanted me to do the crotch grab but i wasn't drunk enough to do that at the time of her asking lol. when i first got there jaimies 3 year old daughter ellie came running up to me and wanted me to pick her up. it pretty much proved mine and stephanies point of children flock to MJ.

as promised i took pics before i left.

ofcourse the drama just has to continue every freaking day. even though i won't be home tonight that doens't mean that today can go by drama free. mike just called me to talk to me. which is never ever good. he accused me of calling my aunt a drug addict and an alcoholic. i haven't said anything to anyone. yes i've vented on this journal which they don't know about and if you want you can look back at past entries i never said any such thing. i have no idea where he got that idea or if she told him that, then i have no idea where she got that idea. but i do know that i purposely don't say shit to anyone around here. and i have NEVER said anything to that effect to anyone ever. i am so sick and tired of people accusing me of saying shit that i didn't say. that's why i don't say anything at all. that's why i don't talk to anyone in this house especially. i'm sick to death of it. and after the shit he pulled last night i'm not in the mood for this. thatnk god i'm not home tonight. i don't even want to know what's gonna down tonight i'm just glad i'm not here tonight.

see entry below for last nights events

this is the perfect song for this moment not the one i was listening to when i originally posted but i'm editing it in.

i know i haven't updated in a long time. i've been so busy with work and so tired by the time i do get online. so here goes.

ottavio is still doing great. he already has friends and is fitting in well at school. so far so good with him. mike has managed to scream at him in drunken nonesense telling him stuff that you just don't tell a kid. like the truth about his mother and his aunts which i won't post here becuase it's not my place to say it. he and my aunt have had one screaming match since ottavio's been here. amazingly though he seems well adjusted and comfortable here.

tonight mike irritated me. bandit was laying by the cooler where we keep the sodas and mike was making a sandwich. now i don't know if bandit begged for food or not. or if he simply got up. but mike stomped at him. i didn't see him make contac with bandit but i do know that bandit is a fearful dog. and when i reached out to pet him a minute later he flinched away from my hand as if i was going to hit him. he's never flinched away from me. so i can only assume that mike did something to him. i had actually brushed against mikes arm when i walked by him after he stomped at bandit. before i had the chance to apologize he snapped at me "well excuse me maam you gonna hit me like tha tand not say excuse me" now due to his attitue and stomping at my dog i ignored him. he then started slamming things in the kitchen. i ignored him more. his little hissy fit was actually a tiny bit amusing considering he was acting like 2 year old.

anyway tomorrow is jaimies party. my costume is all ready. interestingly enough mike was the one to spray paint my fedora black. it is a bit stiff because it took three cans of spray paint to cover the leopard spots but there isn't much anyone can do about that. it looks great though. my hands were a bit residuey when i handled the hat. hopefully that goes away before tomorrow night. if not i'll just have to make surei wash my hair good. i will definitley post pics of me in my costume. for you guys to see.

eric just came in here crying because my aunt and mike are having another of their psychotic screaming matches. eric was in here with me for a short time but decided to go out there. i can't make him stay in here. and i did all i could last time around. i'm blasting the FM radio on my ipod radio now because i'm not even stable enough to pick my own music i just can't stand to hear it anymore. anyone who knows me and my music knows that i can always pick my own music and prefer to. i NEVER listen to the radio unless i'm in the car or it's waking me up as my alarm. i dont' know where ottavio is through this whole thing and i'm not sure where eric is right now. i did shout when eric first came in here "same fucking shit just a different fucking day and i hope you fucking heard me"

so the question is after losing Michael, losing my rabbits, and this shit on a regular basis. how much more can i take beofre i flip out completely?

so today i sent my aunt to the store with my debit card and a list. when she got to petsmart to get the rabbit food a woman who works for the food company was stocking the shelves. they started talkingg about bunnies. turns out this woman owns a farm that she turned into a sort of bunny sanctuary. they have indoor and outdoor runs and she doesn't adopt them out, she keeps them and takes care of them. she said she'd take the three i'm looking for a new home for. the store didn't take my card because it still had a hold on it waiting for my paycheck to clear. so she came to my work to ask me for my checkbook. she also told me about the woman. so without any forwarning or the chance to say goodbye i only had one bunny. wyatt ended up being the one i kept. he likes people more and loves to be the center of attention. at this place the bunnies pretty much do they're own thing. which will be better for oreo since she doesn't really like poeple. but still i was all upset at work and let people see me cry and it was just not pretty.

the day did have an upside though. my aunt found the perfect shoes for my costume and the white v-neck t-shirt. she only found a leopard print fedora and didn't get it. i went to the flea market looking for one didn't find it. but i did find a military jacket that looks exacly like one of the ones MJ used to wear. i got it for only 10 bucks. so that will save the Beat It jacket which i dont' think that could have handled another beating. so i was happy about that. she also grabbed me an MJ bag. it was my money but she thought i'd like it. probably a peace offering in a wya for the bunny thing. and yes i do have pics.

Jaimie at work throws a Halloween party every year. sometimes it's themed. like the picnics i usually don't go due to no ride. but this year i am going. vicky is gonna give me a ride becuase we're scheming lol. the theme of the party this year is to dress as your favorite dead famous person. too easy right? Vicky said "if i tell everyone your going as Michael Jackson, nobody will believe me so when you do it'll be hysterical" and i said "if you give me the ride, i can pull it off" and she goes that's worth it. later she came back and goes "I told diane that if i give you a ride i get to pick your costume" i cracked up laughing and said "what did she say?" she goes "she said 'i hope you didn't pick Michael Jackson, that might be too hard on her' " i i started laughing again and said "it's too easy! do they know me at all?" and she goes "no, apparenlty not" and i said "well they should at least know us. remember last year when you were me for halloween and everyone thought that i'd be offended and i thought it was genius" and she goes "well that' what makes it funny" so that's our plan. ofcours it's a saturday so i had to ask because my aunt works saturdays. i'm not all together sure mike counts as adult supervision. she didn't give me a straight answer. so i just said "okay well i'll tell vicky as long as i got a ride i'm in" she didn't say anything really. i just hope the house is still standing when i get back. but neither one of those kids (eric or ottavio) or mike is my responsibility and with everything i've been dealing with. i deserve a night off. lets just hope that drunk doctors stay where they belong this time. if not the red flakes from my Beat It Jacket should lead the search party to us. lol. that poor thing is falling apart. it has to take one more beating though. at least it's for a good cause.

i would love to see HIM live in concert. yes i would definitely travel to see them!

well Ottavio is here. i have only spent about 5 minutes with him. but based on what i know in that five minutes. he seems overall well adjusted and laid back. he's not upset by the move or anything. he's already playing wii with eric. and mike talks to him about getting his room ready in the attic and stuff and he's going "uh hu...okay...whatever dad" lol. so he seems alright so far. we'll see what happens as he gets more comfortable here. i'm holding nothing against him. i don't personally like mike but ottavio is just a kid.

so mikes court date was today. he won the custody battle. so they left for virginia tonight. they should be back tomorrow night possibly thursday morning. they will be returning with Ottavio. mikes 13 year old son. i took tomorrow off work so i can be here to get eric to school. i'll call my co worker veronica tomorrow night if i have to have her cover thursday as well. hopefully not. not that i would mind another day off but i feel bad having to have veronica constantly cover for me. that's realy all i know right now. i'll try and keep you guys posted. until then here goes nothing. but hey at least i get tonight and all day tomorrow without the insane people. just me and eric. and tomorrow while he's at school i get peace and quiet. even better.

it seems simple right? that along with other simple and normal things like shave gel, body wash, acne cleanser, hand lotion, snacks for work, food for work, and movie tickets. all have to be fought for if your me. it truly is ridiculous! today i made eggsalad. i wanted to have it for lunch tomorrow at work. eric wanted some i told him "i don't mind if you have some but don't eat it directly from the bowl and save me enough for a sandwich tomorrow" i came out after watching my show to make him soup. and i saw a single spoon in the sink with eggsalad on it. i looked in the fridge and the improperly closed container was a dead give away. and there was not enough left to make a sandwich. so i guess i'm having turkey agian. then if that's not bad enough i go to take a shower and reach for the brand new can of shave gel to shave my legs. the top flies off when i hit the shelf on accident. it wasn't on tightly. and there is shave gel on the spout. so i asked eric and he siad he uses it. for what i don't know. he's not old enough to shave and if he was it's for your legs not your face. so the body wash i alreayd had to hide and other products mentioned above i already had to hide, that was added to it.

i did finally get This Is It tickets. i'm going with my cousins fiancee kristin. she's also an MJ Fan. it's sad i had to ask her though if she'd take me. but nobdoy else around me would. so i had to fight for that too. especially after a money issue caused my ability to get the tickets to be in question. i did finally get them.

it's just very annoying that i can't have junk food in the house without hiding. or any food for that matter. not even lunch for work or something shave my legs with. or i have to stop what i'm doing when i'm very busy to order food for them and go get it. when they are all perfectly capable. it's just soooo totally irritating

so today was the picnic. i have to admit i actually had fun. for the first time in a long time i was able to just relax and hang out with my friends and not worry about something. it was rahter eventful too. we get there and we eat and everything then brad asks his wife sam if she wants to go on a nature hike with him. she says no. that should have been our first clue. i said "well i'm in" and more than half of us decide to go on this nature hike in search of the swamp that's in the woods. we didn't take into consideration that brad was drinking and really only scouted the first hundred yards of the trail. basically he had no idea where he was going. lol. we made it to the swamp and brad decides he wants to try and catch a fish with his bare hands or get one in his now empty cup. he goes out on a log that's over the water. we're all betting he's gonna fall. veronica gets her phone ready to take a pic should he actually fall into the swamp and we then decide that video would be much better. so steve heads out onto the log as well we all yell "hey steve! jump up and down!" as we're laughing hysterically. then vicky goes "we do have a doctor with us" i look around and say "actually both of the doctors that came with us are out on that log right now" vicky "oh oops" then brad yells 'adoes anyone have any bread?" we look around and go "we got cookies that's it" we decide that since peggy i sthe new girl she needs to be hazed to officially join our staff. we send her out onthe log to bring the cookie to the guys. as i yell "we are sending forth the cookies!" terri is making commentary mimicing the corcodile hunter going "now if we be very quiet..croinky! look at that!" lol we're all laughing hysterically. then it's time to head back. we don't know which way is back. we wander around lost for quite a while. we were trying to decide if this was a horror movie which of us would be the first to die. we decided probably veronica since she opted suicide over being murdered. each fork in the trail brad would stop and ask which way we should go popular vote was the one we took lol. by the end bills twins were leading the way. which was probably not great. we ended up coming out in someones back yard and found the road. everyone was very surprised when we came back not the same way we left. apparenlty bill who did not join the hike went out looking for us at one point. he tracked us to the swamp. waitied to see if we came back and when we didn't he went back to camp clueless as to where we went. everyone thought the video was hysterical. i said to my boss barb "were ya worreid" she said "well i might have been on monday when my staff didn't show up" lol. over all it was fun. lesson of the day is dont' follow the drinking doctor into the woods lol.